Here are some of the plants I re-potted last night with Liam, to prepare everyone for our move away from Harrisburg. They are so happy in the sun on the front windowsill. So much is growing, literally and metaphorically!
Dear Comrades,
So much is happening in my life. I am moving! I reached my fundraising goal!
I will be adventuring for the rest of the year, into next. I am actively looking for places to stay. Please reach out if you are able to host me, or offer me affordable housing!
I am looking for a place to stay in Portland, OR starting on July 16. I would like to stay for a month, or perhaps longer. I hope to attend the Portland Pride celebration, the third annual BIPOC Adoptee VOICES Conference, and look for opportunities to live and work there.
your intuition will lead you outside your comfort
zone so that you can grow
I am open to going anywhere, really! My move has taken so much of my attention, energy, and focus. I have yet to reach out about travel after my move, though I will be doing so once I am done with the final wave of my move.
I have two particular dates for which I am seeking a place to stay in specific locations. I would like to be in Washington, DC for the weekend of September 19. I also would like to be in Newark, NJ for the weekend of October 17.
I am looking to stay anywhere from a weekend to a week to a month, or longer. I prefer longer stays, so I can explore the area and also get into some serious writing. I am quiet and clean, and prefer queer and gender expansive friendly spaces.
may all of the times that someone
has made an incorrect assumption
about you activate a new sense of
humility and patience in your mind
that stops you from doing the same
thing to another person in the future
My dear friend Shannon posted about my request on social media, which was such a sweet gesture. Shannon, I want to thank you publicly for doing that for me, dear friend, since I didn’t do so when you posted on Instagram. Thank you for supporting me and loving me so!
I will appreciate any leads or offers you may have for me. I do prefer my having my own room, as opposed to shared or common spaces, due to my sometimes irregular sleep patterns. Thank you in advance!
For those who might be following along and curious, my belongings are in Baltimore, which is also where my office is set up. I am doing my move in three waves, which is strategic for a few reasons. I will be doing my final move this weekend.
when chaos is all around you
the wisest choice is to create
peace within you
I wanted everyone to have refreshed soil for the big move. I was overwhelmed by the process and appreciated having Liam’s help to get through the process of re-potting. So much as grown at this table.
The other exciting news is that I have reached my fundraising goal! Thank you to donations from Shannon, Steve, and Kumar since sending my last newsletter, I have even slightly surpassed my goal! I appreciate everyone who has supported me along this journey, who I have named in prior newsletters.
And, I just monetized my newsletter! Just now, after I typed the prior paragraph, and started to type this one! I also paid off a debt that had been lingering overhead since the end of last year, which also felt great to be able do!
This all feels like a big deal! Please support me if you are able to do so! I will appreciate every bit of your support!
i cannot
make you happy,
but i can
commit to support you
in the creation
of your own happiness
I sent Bi-Monthly By Ryan #1 on Wednesday, April 24, 2024. I am not even sure how to summarize the journey that has unfolded in the two years and two months since sending my first newsletter. This newsletter has been a practice of commitment to myself first and foremost, as I often say.
I have already learned many lessons along the way. I have learned how to make this space uniquely my own, so it is a reflection of who and how I am. Now, I am at a new turning point of asking for you to sign up to support my financially, as/if/when you are able to do so.
Do you enjoy reading my newsletter? Do you look forward to receiving my messages? Please consider offering me your ongoing support.
i don’t remember my past lives
but if i have lived previously
you were certainly there
if this is a new opportunity for us
let’s make sure to do it all
better than before
Another journey which has been taking a turn in the most delightful way is my friendship with Liam. As we break down the apartment we shared and built together in Harrisburg almost three years after our relationship ended, we are doing so with love, support, and kindness. So many emotions are arising, and they are cradled with a tremendous mutual respect for and admiration of each other.
As I see it, our friendship is a way for us to keep our lifelong promise to each other, in a way that is relevant to who and how we are now as individuals, and collectively. We are building a future friendship founded on our past relationship. This allows us to keep intact the systems and structures of care, support, and understanding that we built during our time as intimate partners, and carry them forth with us as friends.
This has been no easy work. And, we have taken time to re-figure out how to communicate with each other as friends. Though the work was not easy to do, it was worthwhile in the outcome.
honesty
+
natural bond
+
laughter and joy
+
genuine mutual support
+
revitalizing interactions
+
authentic communication
=
empowering friendships
Liam and I have been taking time to separate our plants, which are so important to us both. Last night we re-potted plants to prepare everyone for their big move, in the various directions we are going. It was such a caring exchange that was as hilarious as it was sweet.
This is the last newsletter I will send from my apartment in Harrisburg, from where I have sent most of my newsletters to date. I was too tired after the second wave of my move to send a newsletter earlier this month. Thanks for your patience!
And, thanks for reading this far, for those of you who have made it here! Thank you in advance for your support, for those who do sign up to be paid subscribers. The next time you hear from me will be on the other side of my move.
Love, Ryan <3
Ongoing:
Please consider becoming a paid subscriber to my newsletter! I am using a name-your-price model to offer you the most flexibility. I am not quite sure how the sign up process works yet, though I trust I will be able to offer more insight on how to do so in my next newsletter/moving forward. <3
Here is an aerial shot of the propagations moments before they became planted. I love preparing and getting set up for the messy process of growth. I love watching the roots grow. <3
